-☣- heyy baby, Looks like you were wrong.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 2:24:00 PM
reading it,
my heart stopped a beat.
i felt like i was about to cry.
but i couldnt,
i promised to stay strong.
i was in a state of shock.
i didnt know what i should do.
i told everyone,i told myself.
i've moved on.
but a part of me,
just couldnt let go.
dear god,
when times im down.
when times im confused.
you were there for me
you heard my cries
you heard my prayers
but why would you give me dreams
related to her.
why must every dreams seems like
she needs me?
and why must every dream.
i wake up loving her more than i used to?
i've tried everything i could.
but nothing seems to work.
to a certain someone,
i appreciate you trying to talk to me.
thanks for the concern.
but if its okay,
can you watch your distance between us?
you're just a friend.
and you have your bby to live for.
can you please,
leave me alone?
nothing is turning right for me
Bella says its Karma,
i guess i believe in it.
and here's retribution for me.
im weak.
im not strong.
no loving you is harder than you know,
3 days to 27,
preety soon.
it would mean nothing anymore.
if you need time,
i guess i'll go away.
and friends,
if you hate me.
tellme.
i wished i could just leave the world.
atleast that would bring smiles.
can someone, help me
-☣- gym day^^
Monday, November 23, 2009, 7:41:00 AM
oh man,what a way to start the day
while showering,
i realised the shampoo was in mumzey's toilet.
so i went out and took it
shower again,
then my alarm rang.
damnit.
shower again,
bro asked to open the door.
he forgot his body armour.
i had to rush out cause mum's sleeping.
dunt wanna wake her up.
she's tiredd.
aww,im a good boy ryt?
ahhh screw it.
niwaes.
freezing cold.
and guess what.
big bro bought me rayban shades.
and and and,
im wearing it now.
while searching for my p.e shirt.
my grey bag.
and posting this.
k this could possibly be the longest time i post.
type abit,then go find stuff.
type abit then go eat.
type abit then ,idk. post somemore?
k im not making sense.
so today's gym day.
im so gonna destroy my body.
but before tht,
im gonna use yokoyoko.
idk why.
but i like the smell.
motivates me.
so,i have alot of sick friends.
including myself.
Azah Vempira,
Achid,
Ahmad,
Bella,
Gab,
Zam,
Qiz,
and if ure sick,
i'll add ur name up here.
cause ive nothing to do.
-☣- thanks to yeen!
Sunday, November 22, 2009, 7:41:00 PM
it was when i talked to yeen
i finally realise,
this is not what i really wanted.
i'll try my best,
to make all my friends smile.
i dunt wanna get attached
for all i knew,
i've hurt everyone i made a commitment to.
so yeah.
for the time being,
i think,
i'll be just a friend.
and and.
i so wanna be in A team!
sounds so cool.
means,
no more time to waste.
gym,trainig,long joggs.
im beat.
still sick.
i'll push myself.
yeen,
thanks for the talk yeah?
i feel so much better(;
im done playing arnd,
and Bella told me.
love is not a game.
well love,
i've never seen your beauty.
show me,
some day.
and this was from yeen(;
& sometimes, things happen for reasons
that we don't realise previously.
Take just a lil' time to think about it
before going to bed or something.
Not all get in our way.
Learn to accept and appreciate what we have now.
Make the change where possible;
for the better not otherwise. ((:
